Theres one thing

My life is smooth. im starting over.
Im single.
i want to keep it that way.
I dont like anyone it only makes things worse well right now. If i meet a girl and dig them then its legit im not gonna look for it.
got all the negative shit out of my life.
Im not gonna keep anything in my anymore
what ever i feel im gonna say it.
if it hurts well sorry but its what i feel.
and i really dont care but ehh.
i might sound like a dick in this blog.
but my tone is not a dick tone at all
=D

Am i living?

O man O man
For some reason this certian someone has been poping in and out of my head. I see her Once in a while. But now everywhere i go Shes just there walking by or whatever. I dont know if she sees me and if she does what does she think?

I dont really know why she keeps poping up. I mean its over right? as much as i tried and tried getting over it. i just cant. This is one of the hardest things i have had to deal with. And it is not legit at all or is it?

I DONT KNOWWWW!!!!!!!!!!

Where were you?

Where were you dad when i needed you?
Where were you on my Birthday?
Where were you on Christmas?
Where were you when I needed someone?

Funny thing you were never there?

how can you live with yourself knowing you have a son out there who need you the most.

you can be with your other Family but you cant even call and say hi to yor first child.
you make me fucking sick. Through Out the years I thought you would come in my life and be a father. Time goes by and you still havent.
Im 18 years old almost 19 im an adult.
And i fucking made it without you in my fucking life.
If i ever see you you have no idea what i will do.
Your the reason i have half the fucking problems i have.

but what do you care?
your just living your life not knowing you have a son who need a father figure.
so Fuck you.