come

and sit next to me while we look at each other and stair earch other in the eyes.
come closer to me as i hold your hand and tell you that i love you.
will i remember you 10 years from now?
of course
im here to tell you how hard it is for me to talk

sad and ashamed is all that i am

you lifted me up to my feet each and everyday.

i dont know why everyone just took you away.

your always going to be in my heart

but this love has just tore us apart

Take me

Into this world that you call "happiness" will you hold me when i need to be held?
tell me what you think? because all i have is nothing. This world will go two ways if you play your cards right. tell me are you there?

Ill be waiting

I know this feeling coming over me..
And I know that I won't sleep tonight
Obsessions come and go so desperately
I think were running out of time
Will you remember me?
Only when the moon is bright
Under the fireflies light
Ill be waiting tonight...ill be waiting.
In the land where the cold winds blow, and the heartless few will never know,
Ill be waiting tonight....Ill be waiting.
Youre making moves with such uncertainty,
Yet I can only watch you cry,
Keep playing games with all that's meant to be, and time will only pass you by.
I will never be... I will never be...
With these ties around me
I feel it coming slowly
So quick to let it go, but the memory is one you'll remember.Ill be waiting.

......

Call back to me, maybe Im broken, Ive been talking to a dial tone
(she breaks down) and maybe Im falling from grace
(she breaks down) if you want to reach Him pick up the phone Theyll let you in, theyll let you down
Were hanging by a thread in the heavens
(she breaks down) And you set all the boundaries, I will build a transmitter station,
(she breaks down) are we all alone in space tonight,
and I really cant speak tonight, I try but nothing comes out right, I cant get a hold of you,
And I really cant feel a thing your touch is empty without meaning,
Are we just falling into waves of black and white theyll crucify.
Breathing in breathing out, thats the way that you stay in the human race
(She breaks down) and you set all the boundaries I will build a transmitter station,
(She breaks down) are we all alone in space tonight?
And I really cant feel a thing your touch is empty without meaning, I cant get a hold of you, and I really cant speak tonight, I try but nothing comes out right
Are we just falling into chains of black and white, theyll crucify.
Can you signal me Im blind, can you speak to me Im broken for you,
Can you signal me Im blind (Im blind Im blind)
can you speak to me so I can see, so I can see.

whats on my mind

Ill just say holidays are not my think are not my thing at all. Ill admit it does bum me out because all the people i talk to are talking about spending it with there families and stuff and i just feel like i dont have anything. i guess its just how it was ment to be. i cant think of a time my family was together not one =(
i dont know.

what has really been on my ind alot is my so called "father" i wonder sometimes if he even knows i exist? does he even remember me. i get flash backs alot of what i can remember from him. Other then that u dont know. i dont remember his voice i dont remember much all i have is one picture of him and thats it. sometimes i just wish i did have a father i could go to. but i guess i can only go to myself o well. ill be back
...<3

Are you

out there?

i sure hope soo.... come to me i need you

sugar to sweet

sugar too sweet will rot your teeth, living this way would make a slave feel free

Can you signal me Im blind, can you speak to me Im broken for you,

Can you signal me Im blind

can you speak to me so I can see, so I can see.

Happy thanks giving.... HAHAHAHA right

One more thing

Lawlz haha

man o man

im so tired im so sick and tired,

why would they do that.

How can i tell if its real or if its not? maybe i will never know?..............

Listen here
You dont know me if you say this

but if you say you do then HA

Lets talk

So, its been a while since i have written in here, well there isnt to much going on. im still single,umm the only thing thats a problem are my "friends" i put it in quotes because how do i know who are my "friends"?
i mean "friends" dont talk behind peoples backs right? i love finding out new things of what people say. all im going to d isignore it because i know thats not me. those are one of the reasons i dont talk to anyody about anything i dont know if i can trust them. i ove when people ay they know me but they dont. if they really did then they wouldnt say whats they say right?
o well whatever floats there boat. well in other news i finally got a Job. fuuuck its about time lol
well thaanks giving is tomorrow still nothing to do =(
o well peace.

o and one more thing

ha ha ha man o man was i a sucker ha

To Cut A Long Story Short

All along, ive tried to erase this pain,I persevere but its always the same, After all, that's how im told you are meant to feel, But I refuse to believe this is real. Listen to the sound of surrender…. So many times, im lying awake at night, Still see for your face in the pale moonlight, A vacancy, Is looking back with a hollow glare, I realize you were never there. Listen to the sound of surrender…. Listen to the sound I don't know where to begin, Ive searched, im digging within, All that I need is to be there standing by your side If I could just hear you speak I feel the tears roll down your cheek Forever searching for a way to turn back time… Once again, this pain has taken me in With open arms and a tender kiss. All along, Ive wondered what ive done wrong to feel this way, It seems its always the same.. Listen to the sound of surrender…. Youre here with me, your face ill see forever I don't know where to begin, Ive searched, im digging within, All that I need is to be there standing by your side If I could just hear you speak I feel the tears roll down your cheek Forever searching for a way to turn back time… Turn back time, im longing for a way to be by your side, I wish i could begin to cleanse myself of sin and finally walk away from this pain thats always in my life. I don't know where to begin, Ive searched, im digging within, All I need is to be there standing by your side If I could just hear you speak I feel the tears roll down your cheek Forever searching for a way to turn back time…

Why would you do that?

well hmm
i started talking to someone i havent spoken with in a while and it feels good to be talking again =)
makes me go like this =D
hehe
i dont have any negative people talking to me which is the best!!!!
GDT
was legit last night

and last but not least

STEP INSIDE!!!!!!!