whats on my mind

Ill just say holidays are not my think are not my thing at all. Ill admit it does bum me out because all the people i talk to are talking about spending it with there families and stuff and i just feel like i dont have anything. i guess its just how it was ment to be. i cant think of a time my family was together not one =(
i dont know.

what has really been on my ind alot is my so called "father" i wonder sometimes if he even knows i exist? does he even remember me. i get flash backs alot of what i can remember from him. Other then that u dont know. i dont remember his voice i dont remember much all i have is one picture of him and thats it. sometimes i just wish i did have a father i could go to. but i guess i can only go to myself o well. ill be back
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