Is this a dream? or real life?

I cant tell what is real anymore.

I cant tell if anything is going to change?

I cant tell if things will ever be the same?

All there is to do is wish and pray.

i dont know if i will be the same. i dont know if i will ever feel the same?

life is just one big blurr

i feel like im trpped and cant get out.

to much pain, to much sadness, to much anger.

I just wish. i wish things were how they were before

I dream. I dream that everything was the same.

I hope. I hope things get better in life

like ive said before everything is going downhill. its all a mess. i cant help but fall apart more and more.

im there when i shouldnt be

im not there when i should?

i cant handle taking this pain into myself.

i dont know.........