This is so hard

Its so hard for me to just get over you
Its so hard for me to forget about everything
I made my mistakes
I made the wrong choices.
I guess this is what i deserve
I wish it was never like this
Why cant it be back like how it was?
I miss you when your not here
i miss hearing you speak
i miss hearing you laugh
i miss seeing you smile
i miss everything
Most of all i miss you
i cant just forget about you.
I cant just go and move on so fast
I cant go love again
It just feels like my heart is broken into little shards
This is the worst i have ever felt
I try my best to look like im happy
i try my best to sound happy
I cant hide anymore
i cant keep pretending everything is ok
I miss you
For once in my life i actually felt happiness
whats there to feel now?
whats there to say?
The only thing that comes through my mind is I love you
I always will