what i find out when i come home

Coming home to something bad is the worst feeling in the world. now it just feels like i tried for nothing it didnt do anything. just lead to pain, sadness, and anger. I dont know what to feel anymore. i feel like i was just there for nothing. was i even usefull for anything? im to confused to think . im to confused to talk. i dont know what to feel right now i dont know what to do? everything is just a blurr.