whats left of me?

I dont even know how to start this. Well i guess ill start by saying life really is a bitch. why is everything just falling apart? love, friends, family, everything why does everything have to all go downhill? i dont understand? all i wanted to do was be happy and put smiles on peoples faces. all i did was try to make a couple new friends. i ended up making enemies and having people hate me. the people that were close to me drifted away and forgot about everything. all i tried doing was to be nice and friendly. i know no one reads this shit anyways im just doing it to write. i really never intened to hurt anyone at all i really never did. things didnt turn out the way i thought they would. i dont know whats left of me anymore. it feels like everything in me is torn apart and left in the street to get run over. i dont know whats going to happen anymore.